EHU Final Year- Thirty-Third Week

Monday

Today I was dead. It was a mong out day as I was so tired from all the traveling. Tired is an understatement. Something about this makes me even more tired that working a full day. I can't sit around and do nothing, and when I do I become even lazier and it gets harder to get into a good routine.

Tuesday

My chill day, for me trying to be productive again (even though I have had an intense weekend) was beginning with admin work. Sorting out DBS, prevent and all other forms and email bookings and guidance sheets for my siddertation.

I GOT MY IMMERSIVE GRADE. I GOT A FIRST. To read about it find my (immersive fairy-tale tarot reading blog- complete with photos). I am so happy. I feel anything that I am really excited about or can put my own style in I do well at. That's what I have learnt the most from University. What I want to do and what I excel in is what I do best and is at a professional standard. I love thinking outside of the box, maybe over complicate the work for me a bit, but create something new.

The later end of the day was a rehearsal for my dissertation. It was a very chill relaxed one and was good to run it with everyone there. I have a few notes for my last full rehearsal next week, but it was so important and good for me to watch it sat where an audience member would to get the full effect (instead of me holding the camera at standing height). It gave a whole new level of energy and I was smiling through it when it was new information to me. I am so incredibly proud of my dancers and the time, effort and dedication they have gifted me with.

Wednesday

I am up and getting ready for grad ball, by doing what I swore i never would and that is fake tanning. I love the getting ready part and being able to feel your best, but I am very conscious that if it rains I will look like an idiot for the whole day.

I opened my day by guiding myself through my own yoga flow. I love how it has seamlessly become part of my every day and helps bring me some clarity and avoids restlessness. Its a good excuse out of work, but is secretly work too.

Once done it was coffee date time again, before heading into the gym for the chunk of my evening. I did the ab class and then my main goal- which was yoga. The ab session if I am honest didn't hit it right with me, push me enough I mean, BUT it reminded me I need to get back into that good routine of abs everyday- which i have let slip for about 2 weeks.

I also started running again. Knowing I am flat out now til the end of the week, it will be a one off for this week but it was easier than when I first started around a month ago. To think I have had quite a break as well I am pretty proud of myself.

Thursday

My legs were not aching when I woke up, so I must be getting a bit fitter right? I went into Uni for rehearsals and managed to sort through some issues with clashing schedules for dissertations which means I am feeling a lot less stressed.

With this stress gone, I can focus on my daily jobs and execute them to the best that my body can in this moment in time. I also felt the need to meditate and get my mind back.(I SPEAK THROUGH THIS IN MY MEDITATION BLOG POSTED TODAY)

After all of this, and a quick call home, I am feeling energised to be this productive goal I so forcefully fix in my mind BUT with peace and self love/care.

Friday

Chill day, catching up on rest for my imminent lack of sleep this weekend and then heading into work in the evening. I have begun tracking my calories again. It is something I could never do as seeing a number would make me feel full, sick and panicky. But I am doing it in a much safer way where I constantly remind myself that I am not full or will be sick, and spread my meals and snacks out ONLY adding them once the food is digested.

I think these tracking aps can be very unhealthy and caution needs to be made around them. Re-going on this journey will allow me to write about this properly and lots of my concerns around it, coming from a personal perspective too.

Saturday

ITS YOGA COURSE DAY AND GRAD BALL.

I was up early and on the train and taxi to the Mariott Hotel in Preston. Our instructor, Charlotte, is so lovely and it was so surreal to walk into a room where everyone is so loving and cooky like you. It took me a whole to adjust if I am honest, but by the end of the day I felt I had known everyone so much longer.

We started by going through how we will be assessed, looking into the history of Yoga and some lineage as well as an idea of everyone elses background. I am already noticing that being more of a vinyasa flow (more dance like) is so different to the Hatha yoga we are doing here.

We had an opportunity to teach twice using relaxation and sun salutations from our back pocket, and I was so proud that I still had the adaptability in my teaching. I loved teaching and jyst wanted to keep going. I CANNOT WAIT TO TEACH YOU ALL YOGA.

One of the ladies really kindly began doing my hair in the lunch break, which I finished off when home, and took me to the train station so I could get home for grad ball.

This was my apprehensive stress of having 30 mins to get changed and do all of my makeup and hair. Well I had time to spare and honestly wouldn't have changed a thing.

Grad ball here i come.

I loved getting dressed up, and it was so weird to see all of the dancers dressed to the 9s as we are so used to being in our active wear. I need to go to more balls.

After the ball, when i was determined to go home for an 'early night' I was now egging on for the after party. I felt so present in the moment, of enjoying myself right now, whilst also being sensible enough to be in a good condition for my course tomorrow. I know me more than anyone else and if I want to do something I will. I know I will get up. I know I won't over drink. I know I can focus.

My advise that I am still learning from. Live your best life now but don't jeopardize your future over such a temporary.

Sunday

Up early I am proud how awake and fine I am. Without trains running I grab the taxi into Preston and am so eager to begin. I love this space already. The room has become a safe space for yoga practise and the environment to people is so lovely and supportive.

Today we worked on closing down a session, learning a range of asanas and their modifications and how to prep and counter pose each one. It took me a while to get my head around beginner beginners without having those bodies in front of me.

The day ended with guided meditation, something I am strong and LOVE, and a pranyama and relaxation to end the day.

I have found out so much more information and potential courses to do as well and am ready to write my lesson plans for assessment and beyond for the next weekend course.