EHU Final Year- Twenty Fifth Week

Monday

Today was a nice day. I was so excited for morning yoga again, and my body was still aching from the gym on Saturday. We ended up focusing more on Bhartnatyma instead of yoga, looking at footwork and mudras. Our final learnt phrase reiterated the complexities within this dance form and how many things you had to remember from different quadrants of your body.

Our contemporary class was more hit and miss with me, with my mood and self-belief fluctuating more. I'm not sure why, but I left the class feeling good again. I made sure to sit in the park on my walk home and reground with nature.

Once back it was a food shop before doing more than I thought I would in my yoga workbook and then continuing to work on the props for my immersive performance. It was a nie relaxed day where i got my jobs done.

Tuesday

My 11-1class went quickly. Suddenly I was half way through my day. Normally the massive gap between class and my dissertation rehearsal drags and i end up feeling tired and unmotivated. But today it went so quick. I was at the library printing off immersive material, gym, went and got lunch, got and learnt how to work some new projectors, and tweeked my music. It was so good and I felt so productive. I am now starting to feel and see myself getting stronger and it made all my stress melt away and I left in a happy mood.

I was also so proud of myself today for another reason. Normally well I overcome and almost panic attack. Instead of freaking out in external circumstances, I learnt to trust my body and my ability to 'save' myself in a circumstance. It was a silent victory no one could see or feel but I did it. Signs of better to come.

The dissertation rehearsal always makes me think I could doubt myself but then I realise just how great it is and I cant wait to finally piece the bits together and showcase it. TRUST YOURSELF AND THE WHOLE WORLD WILL SEE AND TRUST YOU TOO.

Once home I began editing my music for the diss and got so carried away. It has been such a nice productive happy day. My night ended up by watching a film and finally relaxing.

Wednesday

Today was the day I thought would take forever to get going with a workshop at 5, but ended up being just as productive and nice as yesterday.

I was up at my normal time and dropping the projectors off at uni by 9am. Lazy me didn't have any independent studio time, walked home and did my yoga work for the day. I am flying through the work books and excited to now begin the weekend courses in May/June.

As its WEDNESDAY it was our coffee morning. It was cute and we spent most of the time reflecting on our ERASMUS and where we were last year. Its nice to see my growth.

As I still had my afternoon it was prop time again. Slow and tedious but half way there. I feel more prepared than I have ever been.

Our workshop was with Hiccup Project and was the most peculiar one I have had. We began with a warm up running through the space moving as a group together. It was so surreal. We then moved onto running and running while screaming like we wanted to- and honestly I moved so much quicker and enjoyed running. If only it was acceptable to scream at the top of your lungs when on a treadmill. The whole workshop was around being totally comfortable and using the imagination- imagery technique. Just what I have been practicing in my meditation. We would move as if on a pirate ship, full of bubbles or going up against a storm. I felt totally lost and loved the idea of play again. We then worked on moving how we wanted to using sound, movement and imagery. The session ended by guided improvisation where we moved to a constantly changing music score, and reacted to the sound, music or text how we wanted to. I felt SO liberated letting go and was reminded of the IMPORTANCE OF PLAY.

After the workshop we were straight in to see mapdance perform their 4 bill. One of the artists was working in Malta with ZfinMalta and lead a workshop for us. ITS A MALTA DAY.

Thursday

Another day another show. I am so lucky I am going back to Edge Hill for my masters so I can still access all these shows for such a portion of the price.

My day started by me missing my theory lecture (I know, not a me thing BUT WAS NEEDED). It was rather productive though getting another chunk out of my yoga work done.

I was in for my 2pm capoeria lesson, and what started as a sluggish feeling through my day and lack of energy BURSTED into an enjoyable class and me skipping home to play Spanish music and dance around the living room.

I had a short break back at home to make food before being back at the University to see the Hiccup Project. The show was AMAZIN. All about womens rights, which normally makes me shit off though I belivee in equality,m but their raw humor got me laughing and crying. I highly recommend the show. It gave me a spurt of life and touched me personally linking to my current thoughts.

Friday

Up again and into Uni BUT TODAY I BUILT A TENT. 1. it was fun and I will use it as my meditation space (when i find some room in the flat) and 2. was part of my performance prep making sure I knew measurements. That and cutting out cards was my performance prep before my tutorial where I suddenly had to 'perform' a reading. It was so weird to do for the first time, but i know i need to start practising and building a character.

We finished after tutorials, and so it was a shorter day for me. Yet, the morning flew by. The rest of the day is other prep, relaxing, chores and potentially the gym (or on Sunday).

Saturday

Today I was at the Lowry for UDance, giving information on Edge Hill University for the next generation. It was a long day but encouraging others to be themselves and follow what their dreams are no matter what- re inspired me. I was also able to have a lot more contact time with lecturers who were working there beside me and find out more information for my own personal development- looking into my masters and potential PHD, living abroad and business building. The world is my oyster and I need to decide what is next- and I am sure I will know when I see it.

I was back late, so quickly catching up on my independent work and practice.

Sunday

Scanning back through my week on a Sunday to make sure I wrote in to all days, reminds me how busy I am. Maybe I am just so used to juggling things that it doesn't seem 'impressive' anymore and that is the true sign of growth- looking for the next thing to push you. I still have spare time, and after speaking to my lecturer last night about her teaching full time, traveling for weeks to create shows and give talks and doing her full time PHD, I could only have a sigh of relief BUT i know I am capable of anything I put my mind to.

Today was allowing myself a lie in, budgeting future finances, doing all my catch up work and heading to the gym.

ITS ST PADDYS DAY- so for the first time in forever I will also be out out.