EHU- Final Year Twelfth Week

Monday

Last week of semester one. Without class I am able to get wrapping done and finish off some loose ends and uni- but honestly I struggle having nothing to do. I don’t want to over exert as I need my energy for shift tonight so I feel a bit like a sloth and I hate that. Its only two more weeks and then I can get back to the gym and all things good. I just need to remember how proud I am of me doing all of this

Tuesday

15 mins before I left for uni we decided to come in at the original time of 2. I didn’t have enough time to have a quick 30 min nap so resulted in Netflix which honestly made me sleeper. I wish I knew in advance as the half an hour would have made all the difference.

When in we were in a bigger space and put on some spotlights to get more in a performance space. We showed it to one of our lecturers who is unable to see it on Friday. He said good things about it, doing a run full out felt amazing and needed and I had hope.

For a piece we never officially polished it was clean and tight. I am amazed at that as cleaning is always such a big weight on me for a show.

After class I had a quick nap then was on my way to work. How the universe worked with me only being in two days a week when I started is a god send. As much as I am managing it hasn’t thrown me over the edge or affected studies like my family were worried about.

Wednesday

Only ending up in for two hours was a blessing. We ran the piece the best we could in the smaller space and then called it a day. I went straight home to bed to get my nights sleep. Even though I didn’t sleep through when I got up I was refreshed enough to tweak the programmes and send the information over to the other marketing team and then get ready for work.

Work was the same as always but only 2 more days til we get paid so that should motivate me through.

Thursday

This was the first morning I woke up and thought “Do I really need to go in?”. I’m exhausted. After a few hours sleep, it’s me, i headed into My first proposal tutorial. Whilst waiting, i bumped into my favourite lecturer who I spoke through my ideas with and she gave me a book related. It was a quick read, and I got it done in the wait. The tutorial went well as i was told everything was well researched just from my layout and quotes I showed. I am feeling more confident, but need to remember to send some in to get evaluated.

The plan was to have an hour nap then stay up the rest of the day to go back to a regular sleep pattern but I ended up awake anyway. Coffee shop (well tea) and then a food shop I love my Thursday rituals.

Honestly I didn’t do too much today but I needed that.

Friday

Show day and last day of semester one!

We organised a rehearsal before the Tec, that when we got there realised we didn’t need it. It was one of our most stagnant rehearsals but we walked through the piece once then had lunch. The Tec went quite quick for a Tec (in my opinion) and two hours later we were out after working with some of the props for the first time.

30 min break and we went to a dress run. I had half my face on and a quick snack. As our piece was second we got go watch the other groups. The two creations are VERY different. You could see individual moments where a dancer would shine (whereas ours was more unison and group work) and also a more delicate style of movement and music. Once done we were straight on. The Tec went amazing for me that the adrenaline didn’t allow me to notice I had scratched up my knees and feet until after. It felt good knowing I had DANCED. We got our notes and feedback (that wasn’t as much as I thought) and finished getting ready.

Waiting while the first group performed didn’t take too long but I just wanted to be on stage. I didn’t think the show would go as well as j had a good Tec.

Show time- and I messed up on the simple bits I had never before. I went off on the wrong side but quick thinking reused a walking motif, as a foreshadow, to get across the stage PLUS I was joined by another dancer who did the same thing. My police had, which has never fallen off, fell off- but again it mirrored another dancers so weirdly worked. I think you always feel the show doesn’t go as well as you heavily critique yourself which you don’t to the same extent any other time.

Once done and packed up, I was so glad to head home and have done a semester. On the walk back I bumped into some second years who watched the piece. They shared their thoughts then invited me to watch their show tomorrow night.

Saturday

My phone came! I wasn’t expecting it until Monday but now I can actually message people, listen to music at work and be able to contact someone if I need to (especially working nights) PLUS it’s so pretty.

Today is my well deserved lazy day. My knees and feet were still killing as i woke up but I know I didn't have much to do. The original plan was to head in to Liverpool but with the 15 min walk to uni taking me 30mins, that was a no go.

When I got to the uni, I met up with my mate and began baking. It was so cute. After a relaxing evening we went to watch the second years choreographies. Some were amazing, but you could tell all the effort they had all put in, their ideas and intention, and the clarity if their writing. I can really look back to when I was getting marked thinking everything was amazing, but now I can see closer to the lecturers eyes with their years of knowledge and see where there can be development or where to and where not to include ballet. It was really interesting to watch, and now I am on the look out for lighting inspiration.

Sunday

Today is the day to finish my proposal. I’m out if the routine of it, but after a positive tutorial I know I can get it finished today (if I put my head down) and I can enjoy Christmas and New year and can draft after.