Final Year- EHU Seventh Week

Monday

The journey up North- 5 hour later I am back. No words. It was pleasant enough- I tried to do some work and come up with a list of jobs and share with the group but the trains were an awkward length to really get into something before swapping for the next one.

I got back to the flat early evening so had a nice chilled day and started new series on Netflix- I've stared at my work for too long already.

Tuesday

A nice leisurely wake up- I was going to go to the gym but I am still feeling so weak and need to try and be smart. I miss the gym and hope I am not getting weaker and can do pole tomorrow.

2-6 not too bad. To be honest it feels a little like Monday as I wasn't in yesterday. I feel 5 steps behind the world at the moment. Class went well as normal, nothing out of the ordinary though our lecturer did have to kick the class a bit to get effort and enthusiasm up- I don't blame him as I can feel how tiring it is with unmotivated vibes. I'm learning more from this process how one method can work for some and not others and what people in the process think. It is interesting to know how people think and then act. I get frustrated as it isn't my way of working but am trying to stay positive and get as involved as I can and coming up with ideas outside lectures.

With the replacement buses still running no matter how quick I get to the station I am always late for this rehearsal. I got there 50 minutes later but managed to catch up quickly. I even found out that this piece may get funding to be in a festival in March- so fingers crossed. I got back around 11:30 so was a quick meal make and straight to bed. I know I just had reading week but I am I need of a week off- oh well lets troop on.

Wednesday

11-1. The first hour was so slow and I was struggling to find things to do- half the group went over a section that I wasn't in so the rest of us tried to start piecing things together- issue was we knew it would get changed and/or had no idea what the overall want is. Nevertheless we tried and stayed busy.

The second hour we got to create more work (not that we need more sections) but combined parts from each bit to create a new phrase. This was interesting and we produced some nice material that just needs ALOT of cleaning.

Job interview again. After cancelling one a while back due to needing a day off, I received a class for a re-interview. They were keen and the job sounded good. I came home from uni and had enough time to eat, shower and put my best face on. The taxi driver on the way there was so lovely and we ended up having deep chats about religion and all sorts- he even gave me business advice and talked through pros and cons of living in the North or the South.

The interview went welland they will sart sending all the information I need through to start. I am proud of how pro-active I am as I need to remember not everyone is and I need to take pride in that.

I passed on going to the gym as I think I have tired myself out. I am feeling ill (which I never am) and exhausted at pretty much everything. But I went to pole. It had been two weeks now since my last class and I was anxious on how it would go- as I sucked last time. I LOVED IT. I could do everything and my inversions had improved and I could now do both sides. Maybe a slight physical break from pile helped and my eagerness to move again regardless of how I was feeling helped me. I will be bruised tomorrow!

Thursday

Surprisingly not as bruised and half asleep in my 9-11 lecture. I didn't sleep well again but I know what it is- I just need to stay focused on work and trust the process.

We had a practice as research lecture which was really interesting and we ended up watching our own lecturers choreography and hearing his tales. I am going to book a tutorial to go over my proposal (something I am not good at as I HATE asking for help but know it is vital to see if I am on the right tracks).

I got home and went straight for a nap. An hour later (after my set my alarm went off) I got up and met a friend in town for a coffee. Honestly, its my new favourite thing and is like our personal therapies. After a good needed rant to reassure me I am doing the right thing in life- ish- we went to do a quick food shop. THERE IS NEW VEGGIE STUFF I LIKE. OMG you have no idea how excited I was for a new menu. For lunch I get beer battered hallomuni.

The evening was spent with French- after missing last week due to going home I wasn't sure if I would be ok or if the lesson was a continuation. It was a new subject- buying clothes- and was one I was more familiar by (my app taught it as a first module)so I struggled but was the best lesson yet. My confidence in my French is not there yet but I found out I am at a A1/B2 level already (European guidelines which is roughly GCSE).

Friday

I went to sleep early-ish and slept through 'til late morning- I really needed this. After getting ready I headed to the library to continue with this pre-proposal. Study dates are cute, until one person stressed makes you both.

Today was un-dance related. I just finished a series on Netflix and pigged out.

Saturday

Work work work work work. I can't complain as the trains are back and running so after a long day I only had a 20 minute commute back home instead of 50.

Sad part of my day- I may have seen a horse die. I almost cried in work. All I had heard all morning was how ex-race horses now go to forever homes and don't get put down and then which made me feel so much better about the animal treatment. Then during a race ah horse missed the fence and landed on its side and then was covered in a tent as a car came in for it- it apparently didn't move for ages. Rumour has it that it was just injured and still alive- but nothing was ever said on the tanoy or TV which upset and infuriated me.

Sunday

Southport! I haven't been in 2 years so am excited to see a 'new' town again and explore a bit more- AND GET TO SEE SEA AGAIN. We are going to see the new Nutcracker and honestly it's made me get through the stress of this week.